A Summary of what has gone before
A life of work at it's very beginning
Previously puppetry perpetuated
The player unkind in his play;
His pleasure measured by the length of my strings
Which were forever knotted, one arm freer then the other
One foot firmly on the ground.
The other skyward following my eyes, and my thoughts..
LJMH Jan 2010
Its odd how much life seems to be controlled. We are always told that we are free people but I have never felt free, I have never felt connected to nature or myself until now.
I left school and went to college without knowing what would be best for me but because I was told that it would be best for me. I went from college to university because I was told that this would be best for me. I dropped out of university and the sheer panic of still not knowing what would be best for me I decided to go back to another university because I belived that getting a degree was the only way forward. I got a degree and then struggled to find a job that would satisfy me so I ended up working in an office which pulled me so far from my beliefs that I didn't recognise myself anymore.
My naiveity kept me doing the things that people told me I should do, but I found a way out and I went wwoofing.
I now feel creative again, I feel passionate again, I feel free. I wrote a poem when I was 19 which still holds true today and I always go back to it. When I forget it my strings have reattached themselves and have probably got really tangled before I realise that has happened.
You are stardust
If you fell into the void,
Still on that sofa
In that pub with that pint.
Move with a speck of light
and find yourself laughing all night
And now the sun is rising
Sit back and breathe
Doze under flowers
Smoke after hours
And wake to feel the same.
LJMH 2002
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